The innocence of our childhood lies deep within us. I don't think we ever lose the innocence. Those who have suffered loss and other life crisis in their lives have forgotten who we were as a child..and it seems like a distant burnt out star. We are all in our most trying days, the fight of our lives. But the child that lives deep within us is fighting for us. She understands the simple needs that we are brought back to in times of incredible vulnerability that we are feeling, and our need for security. I know that there are moments that my grief is so overwhelming, my mind can only make sense of it in simple thoughts..the days that I just want to be held and have someone take care of me and "reteach" me the ways of the world. Teach me how to play again and smile. I believe that my real authentic healing has come when I am thinking like the little girl who adored her red shoes and wore them until the straps fell off.